Regression

                                                                            
Michael smiled as he asked me to lay down on a futon in his apartment. Being an average guy and a little homophobic I don't mind admitting I was a little suspicious. As I lay down I kept myself in a position so that I could get up and kick his ass if he made a wrong move.
He came over to me and positioned himself so that my head was in front of his knees, my fist clenched as I got ready to spring into action. I was able to relax a little when I realized that he was just putting a crystal on my forehead, this was supposed to enhance the experience. He began a process that I would use years later he called energy balancing. He had me visualize colors moving through my body in waves. He kept his hands a few inches from me as he moved them over my body as part of the balancing process. He directed me to allow any pictures concerning a past-life I had to come onto view. At first there was nothing but then he gently pressed on the area known as the third eye. The first of many pictures came into view.
The first picture I saw was a picture of a German Soldier from what looked like World War Two. Then it was gone. Then after a few deep breaths I found myself in a kind of
dream state standing in front of the German Soldier that I had seen in the first picture. The soldier seemed to be yelling at me. The next thing I knew, I was being escorted into some sort of camp with fences with barbed wire on them. The experience was so vivid that my arms started to twitch where the soldiers had them in the regression scene. I could feel my feet slipping on the ground as I was escorted into a room where I was told to await a decision. As I tried to look out a window I noticed it was fogged up which explained why my feet were slipping, apparently it was cold and there was snow on the ground. I was escorted to another building. As I walked to the other building I could feel an amount of fear of what was going to happen. A blonde military woman directed me into the room and I was told to get on the left side of the room and wait. The room was filled with people although I didn't recognize anyone. I remember feeling as if there were adults and kids in the room with me some of them were singing and hugging each other. The next thing I knew a bright white light filled the room. I could feel my self being drawn out of my body. I could see my body slumped against the wall as I rose above it. Soon all I could see was white all around me it seemed like a safe, warm, relaxing place. At that time Michael asked me what messages my higher self or spirit guides had for me. The word "Relax," flashed into my mind followed by the phrase "What people think of you doesn't matter; only what you think of your self."
The man that I was in my vision was executed by people he trusted for just being who he was. The feeling in that life was one of mistrust of people and a feeling that I wasn't seen to be a good as everyone else.
I realized that I had come into this life to learn that everyone was equal and that I had to be true to who I really was no matter what anyone else thinks of me. I could now see that the reason for my viciousness was to force people to like or at least respect me so they wouldn't turn on me.
When I realized that this was the basis of my problem I was able to have the understanding needed to change. I changed so quickly that my whole life turned upside down. Within three months I stopped taking and selling drugs and refused to fight with anyone. When I made those changes it forced other changes that I didn't count on. My marriage ended and since I was now a single dad, I had to changed my occupation, my residence and all the beliefs I ever had. Although it was the beginning of a long hard road I finally had the information I needed to succeed.

R.Caruso